LIFELINE

Lifeline

so here i sit, up in this class, one thing on my mind and that's the time passed,i sit by a girl, kitty, my best friend, but some-thing has changed, it feels so different

i love her to death, don't get me wrong, she's still my home-girl, friendship is strong, yet with all this, it's just not the same, all this shit's, driving me insane, but this isn't it, i blame home life to, smile on face each time hatred grew

the saddest lie, but that's how i live, smile on face, underneath hatred, sometimes i just want, to blow my brains out, but kitty's my world, took me north from south

this girl saved my life, when emotions hid, i wonder if she knows what she did

i live for my friends, and she's at the top, when i see her, THUMP THUMP, my heart stops, but not out of love, she's on-ly a friend, but she has my trust, for her, not pretend

she will always, have place in my heart, one true friend, from ending to start

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

FREESTYLES 5/11/2010

Freestyles 5/11/2010

EXPLOSION:
freestyle, here is my beat, no music upon this sheet, yet i go on just the same, nothing nee-ded to fuel this flame

you see i just blast off, BOOM, into sky, escape from doom, from this al-ready scorched earth, i see light, here comes rebirth, but this world's different, not the same, this world is dark, it's at end game

the blast i saw, was no sun, but explosion, now it's dark, no plane comes down to see ash, it's WWIII, we are the last

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

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INFESTATION

ok here comes the new plot, what it's about i know not, this si free, i have no plan, so join me, conquer this land

hello friend, my name is House, i play this game like a mouse, sneeking into all your minds, you see me not, i don't waste time

i infest all that's around,, vile brews coming from sound, a beating lashed out by my hands, vocally i am one band, i need no help, i work alone, others get tossed frmo my throne, so with that said i'll end it here, on foot in, my path is clear

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

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TWO MINUTES

8:50 when i begun, two minutes to fire gun, out of barrel, BANG BANG BLAST, one shot and it was your last

my finger deadly, little time, my words spoken out as rhyme, what else is there i can say, well who knows, it is new day, one day i'll make every-one scream, but today, fuck the mainstream

in my last rhyme, one minute left, watch me as i cha-llenge theft, with my gun, i shoot you in head,two minutes, and BANG you're dead

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

INTO THE DARK

Into The Dark

everything stops
a moment frozen in time
the planet is now dead
only structures left behind

this is not about love
or about beauty held
but the beauty which came
once life had been expelled

for the longest time
there was a peace kept
we knew it would not last
but still we all wept

then one day the stars faded
blinked out one by one
that's when the darkness came
absolute zero, no suns

at least that's how it's told
today in our fairy tales
we are the last of our kind
but we will not prevail

the time since the beginning
hard for all to comprehend
we had time to evolve
and could foresee the end

but this we could not stop
as far as we had evolved
nature had taken course
this could not be resolved

for sextillions of years
our civilization thrived
we could travel the universe
and controlled the skies

but none of this mattered
at least not in the end
time had brought our deaths
now space is dark again

as we stare into the dark
we know our time is done
everything is now dead
and mother nature has won

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

MORTALITY

Mortality

it drives me insane
what will come of this all
will it be an eternity
or box with padded walls

because everyday i think of
that which cannot be known
the news reminds me of mortality
with every death that is shown

both of these concepts
downright scare me to death
they invade my slumber
and fill my waking breath

the trait of a poet
is that one can question all
not just life or death
but humanities flaws

but is that flaw our lifespan
or curi-osity of just one
our mind brings these grim thoughts
until our days are done

we have created worlds
which may not even be real
to which we devote our lives
for paradise boxed and sealed

for those who do not believe
what is it for we live
is this not the great question
to which our time we give

by jsut writing this poem
am i not questioning life
weather this all is pointless
or just one big strife

but the day my death comes
one concept will remain
the fact that we are all mortal
just chemical reactions and brain

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

ARTIFICIAL

Artificial

angry, is my poetry
my rhymes, ne-ver complete
lashing, out against him
as i, call in the fleet

why, does he go back
to a girl, he does not deserve
he, broke her heart once
in pieces, it was served

i, am ready to
just, get up and fight
over, this one girls heart
show off, power and might

angry, i turn to wolf
in face, of the big full moon
emotions, begin to swirl
crea-ting a typhoon

i now pick up a piece
of her shattered heart
hold it in my hand
as i'm tearing him apart

blood is turned to ink
as i spread, it across this page
reveal, my bloodstained claws
as i make, the world my stage

he, tries to win her back
close, but no cigar
he, still has her heart
but this, won't get him far

it's the, actions he takes
which will, define his course
wea-ther her heart will break
love is, a powerful force

but can, she overcome
e-motions towards him
save, herself the tears
remove, artificial grin

all, this just for him
smile, for so long faked
this girl's heart was de-li-cate
just, like a snowflake

but, on this one day
he, turned up the heat
evaporated love
reducing, it to sleet

now it's nothing more
than, just a cold rain
able, to hide her tears
but obv-ious is her pain

i, know how she feels
i, can look past the lies
in, the form of smiles
within, the twilight

now, tears come from me
as i, see her heart crack
shat-tering apart
and forming holes form black

once, again tick tock
time, just passes by
with, some feelings
that can-not be denied

but, will she go back
this, will be his fourth shot
fired, in the dark
from, a heart outfought

but ulti-mate-ly
the choice, comes down to her
weather, she stays with him
or finds, a guy she deserves

but just, like i said
the, choice is not mine
i love her to death
but that, won't stop decline

in my final words
things, get heated up
a story, to be continued
but for now, just be starstruck

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

SOLDIER GIRL

Soldier Girl

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

in this house and through the streets, all she does is make a beat

for the kids and all to hear, under smile, she sheds tears

Soldier Girl, he did you wrong, baby trust me, come along

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

lives by sword, struck down by grins, all of this because of him

slick smile, with blade at side, turn your back, no-one sees lies

hidden behind all their backs, his head turned, begins attack

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

she always struggles to fight, not in bron, but in hearts might

he is outweighed by a ton, Soldier Girl has grabbed her gun

but she points it at her head, why not shoot at him instead

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

you see Soldier Girl wears mask, her shield to keep away gas

but lately it's sprung a leak, inside neuro-toxins seep

she panics, what can she do, to expel this deadly brew

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

every word meta-for-ic, time passes, clock goes tick tick

pulls that gun away from head, survived abuse, won't end dead

now the barrel points towards him, tables turned, destroyed is grin

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

after so long, she cares not, conse-quences, past that thought

pulls the trigger, bang bang gone, last moment he knows what's wrong

as the bullet enters head, he realizes what's been said

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

she stands, stolen is his grin, a bloodspot she wipes from chin

empty gun, tosses to ground, final shot was one big sound

revolution in new world, bang bang so begin the swirls

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

she did not have much to say, her breaking point slapped away

now she reaches end of life, escaped his grip but grabs knife

slit her throat with single blade, last impression he has made

soldier defined by her claws, warrior woman with a cause

as i slow down this here beat, soldier crashes from her feet

one last word for all to hear, this world is consumed by fear

please enjoy it while it lasts, keep in mind Soldier's in past.....

-Carlos "House" Gerardo

REGRETS

Regrets

my tears stream
as i reflect on the past
an ocean has been wept
for one moment, so fast

memories are so clear
hell i remember his glare
she stood against the wall
terror in her stare

i walked onto the stairs
but she dare not twitch
still against the wall
held back by that bitch

this was my chance
i could have stopped it there
but it was not my place
to interrupt this pair

how much i regret
now one year in the past
something i could have stopped
if courage had been massed

i just walked away
leaving her to be bruised
crying against that wall
with a boyfriend who abused

i love her to death
she is now my best friend
but he's left her with scars
which she cannot mend

when someone gets close
she just pulls away
her fear often returns
with a look of fray

now even to this day
tears still come to my eyes
i can feel her pain
and emotions she cries

we are one in the same
this is our bond
i only care about
something which is so fond

she is my little sis
she is my heart and soul
she is my fucking world
but in my heart remain holes

each a black spot
for every time he touched her
something i could have stopped
had i not been deterred

now my heart is in pieces
how could have i left her behind
pinned against that wall
alone and in a bind

everyday how i wish
i could turn back the clock
just go back in time
and take away her shock

but this cannot be done
forever will my head swirl
everlasting are my regrets
in this infinite world

-Carlos "House" Gerardo